My Sister's Boyfriend
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"He changed his best friend. Left me. He made a hurt face and I felt my heart tighten. -Never. Nor could it.

"But it's so far away. -I know. I'm a terrible friend. Thought. But I just let out a laconic answer. "He needs me.

-Perhaps. But you need it too. "Hearing that hurt. That old story... Truth hurts. Very much. And to see Alexander saying that, still so conscious of how I felt, shook me. I felt like I was about to fall apart again. I felt a lot this way the last few days. Like it's going to break at any moment.

"Don't do that. Don't rub it in my face. I put my hands on my face. And I felt a pain in my heart. I was so confused. Then, without controlling myself, I started crying, right then and there. I felt Alexander's hands on my shoulders. "What did I do?" I'm sorry, Malu. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you.

"It's not you. My voice trembled as I spoke. "I'm so confused. I can't handle it. It's a lot.

-Darling...

-I remember. I remember everything, you know?! From the fights, from how much he hurt me, from us. Of everything we've been through. From the anger I feel towards Ceci. Of everything I've had to endure. The times he said he loved me. From touches, kisses. All that fucking confusion. All that crap we went through to get here. And now I see that he still likes her. And... I mean nothing but a babysitter. And that stupid kiss only served to prove that I like him and... "Love him.

- Stop rubbing things in my face, Alexander! I whimpered. "I don't need that.

"You need to admit it, stop running away.

- Flee from what? That I love him? I know, I love him. I'm not running away. I. O. I love it. Pleased to hear? Everything is showing that I love him more than I thought. Is it good to be right? Because to me it sucks. I want to forget, forget everything too. Become immune. Something like this... I don't want to be confused anymore. I HATE to be confused.

"It would be good if you told him and..."

"It would be good if I forgot. That he didn't love him. I'm so useless... Where's my little mermaid knife?

"It doesn't say that. He said, pulling me closer. "You're not useless.

"What a weak thing to say.

"Everyone loves you.

"And they hurt me too. Nice way to love me.

- Have you ever heard that love is synonymous with pain?

-Already. And that sucks. I let Alexander hug me; dropping me into those arms. Putting your head on your shoulder. -Ouch. It hurts, you know?

"Am I hugging you tightly?"

"On the contrary, actually. Very weak. Really hug it, chicken. He squeezed me and I let myself suffocate in that embrace. All it needed was a tub of ice cream and a ridiculous romantic comedy movie to make it look like any other Sunday. I felt two tears fall from my eyes, knowing that the hug would end. I heard someone clearing my throat and Alexandre let me go.

"Am I interrupting something?" Igor's tone of voice alerted me and I wiped away both tears quickly. Alexander still close. I sighed, turning my face away. "Were you crying?"

-No. My hoarse voice didn't do any good.

"What did you do to her?" Igor's voice was unrestrained, it really showed anger and animosity.

Nothing. I replied for Alexander. Wanting to put an end to that mood. Holding my hand to Alexander's shirt, so he wouldn't do something stupid. "It's okay. We're going to see you lose again and...

- Malu, don't lie to me!

"Stop acting like you know something, Igor!" "Anger and frustration hit me and I just wanted him to shut up.

"And I don't know?"