My Sister's Boyfriend
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"You have this habit of underestimating yourself. You have no idea how wonderful it is.

"My ego is not proportional to my ability to excuse, you know?" Complimenting me won't make me forgive you.

"I'm not complimenting you because I want something from you. He snorted, rolling his eyes. "I'm complimenting you because that's who you are. I don't need you to give me anything for me to want to compliment you. Their distrust is frightening, you know? "I have reasons.

"yes, maybe you do. But don't say it's a lie when I say I love you. I felt that familiar rage take over me. Making me huff, incredulous. How did he want me to believe after everything he did?

"If you love me that much..." So why did you stay with my sister? -Bingo. That was exactly the question. The one I screamed in my heart every time he told me he loved me.

-Why... Why... Being sincere, absolutely sincere, and showing once again what a scoundrel I am. She reminded me of you and at the same time it was so different. She was sassy and you weren't. And she had her eyes, brown... I couldn't say no to myself. I searched her for what distanced me most from you. Not knowing that this way I was getting closer. It was wrong, I know it was. But I couldn't resist. I was a scoundrel and I regret doing it.

Don't talk like it matters. I ran a hand through her hair, weighing her motives. I could feel the anger growing inside me again. How could someone be so... selfish? Worse, how could I love someone so selfish? Literally, love doesn't make any

sense.

"It matters, it always has.

-Lie! You never cared. On vacation you let me go, you didn't come after me. It left me abandoned. You've broken all your promises. I whispered, the last sentence, already feeling worn out.

"I've been calling you for weeks!"

"I didn't want to hear your voice.

"So what did you want me to do?"

"I wish you hadn't lied!" I wish you'd gone after me. Was it so hard for you to run and get back to me? Make me okay again? I exploded, my voice lifting. I ran my hand over my face, confused and annoyed. Hurt... - That's it, that's what I wanted. I just wanted you to dodge my stubbornness. Because I didn't want to be without you, I never did.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I've never admitted that even to myself and you wanted me to tell you that?" The guy who hurt me the most? But now it doesn't make a difference anymore. "But I love you.

"It doesn't make any difference.

"Why are you doing this?" Why are you ignoring me? Why do you pretend like that? You stand there, arms crossed, pretending you've forgotten everything! Pretending you don't feel it, that you want me to leave. Pretending nothing else matters. It drives me crazy!

"I'm not faking it! Maybe I just got tired of waiting. Maybe I followed my reason and stopped suffering. Maybe now I love myself, more than I loved you. Maybe it's too late. And maybe that's the way it has to be. Maybe we shouldn't be together. My voice cracked and I felt even more stupid.