Leaving. "The waiter picked me up and I sat more comfortably on the bench. I saw someone sit next to me. Igor, obviously. He scanned me, his expression restrained. But that same cheeky look. I felt my cheeks flush. Her mouth parted, and even though I didn't want to, I felt my heart beat faster just imagining her voice, so when I heard it, my heart went into a thousand:
"Do you mind if I sit here with you?"
"Whatever. I turned my face, watching the dance floor.
You don't really like dancing
-No.
"Then it would be a waste of time to call you to..."
-Absolutely. We were silent and I saw him paying for my soda, I tried not to care so much about that, about his closeness, about his inexplicable desire to start a conversation. I swallowed the liquid greedily, wincing from the ice cream. The music was good, and I tried to concentrate on it.
"I wanted to say that I'm sorry for what I said at the Planetarium. It was impulsive. I'm sorry if I hurt you.
"You can't hurt me anymore. The only thing you do is me off. It had been a deplorable lie, which Igor had definitely noticed, for it seemed that his gaze had taken on an even more repentant aspect. "Please excuse me.
"If you expect me to apologize for your face, too." You'll be waiting. Because I'm not sorry.
-OK. "I really looked at him, the whole context of the face, not just the eyes. There was a small smile on him. "I deserved it.
"I'm glad you know..." The corners of his lips twitched into a crooked smile.
"You've always been a bit skittish, but never that much with me.
"Why are you doing this?" Stay here with me and not with Ceci? I shook my head disapprovingly at my question. -That is... Why don't you forget? Leave me alone?
"Because I don't like unfinished business.
"Are you talking about us?" Because if it is, we're done.
"I don't feel like it's over. Look what I still have with me. He pulled out a tiny notebook from his pocket. Almost a planner, which I gave him as a joke at Christmas when he said he had to write about me so he wouldn't forget my quirks. "I still have everything written here. "She likes to call me stupid and when I stroke her ear. That's weird." He let out a weak laugh and I felt my throat go dry. "I just can't shake it. And I really want to, because it's hurting both of us... And...
"Stop it, Igor. My voice came out softer than I expected. I tried to give her a little harshness, trying to make him see how absurd this was. - Enough is enough!
"Why?"
"How, why?" For God's sake! You're with my sister now! Don't you understand that?
-I know! I understand... I don't deserve Ceci. I don't deserve either.
"Don't put me in this thing of deserving it.
"But I want it and I don't deserve it. You're different and I'm an asshole and selfish. I should disappear. Break up with Ceci... And that's what I'm going to do. -What? No! I wondered why I was denying it. Some time ago, even though I wouldn't admit it, that's what I wanted.
-How?
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