Divorced Ex-Luna Returns With Triplets
Chapter Eighty-Two: Never ever

Nathaniel'S

POV

After reconciling with Grayson, I knew it was high time I faced the real truth before me. My kids. Maurene. Grayson was just a small problem by the side. The real and big part I was scared of admitting was the people I had unknowingly chased

out of my life.

The regret of what I did that day gnawed at me for years, reminding me that I was lonely and I was the cause of my loneliness. Even when she returned to my life, I still felt lonely. It was with great restraints that I didn't touch her even when I wanted to.

I decided that I would not allow anyone to hold me back from meeting my kids, even if it was me- my fear. The fear that they would not accept me. Just like Maurene, out of her anger and hatred for me, she hid them from me. I didn't blame her to some extent.

What if the kids don't accept?

What if they chose Liam who has been by their side over me?

What would I do?

I will accept it or keep trying?

Honestly, these questions kept coming and I did nothing to stop them because I didn't just want to face my fears, I wanted to conquer them as well.

After the day I met Maurene and everything was exposed, I didn't know what to do because it felt too much. Way too much than I have felt for years. I just stayed in silence for days. Maybe because I felt guilty and I had yet to reconcile completely with Grayson. That traitor.

I let out a deep sigh as I stood before Maurene's house. I wanted to inform her that I was coming but decided against it. She could give me some excuses that she was not at home or even tell me not to come at all.

I contemplated going back into my car but then continued for the door. I will not give up now. I embraced my fear.

They were my kids and even though there was a part of me that was telling me to have a DNA test done, I didn't agree. Maurene would not lie to me. She definitely wouldn't do that. And Kai, he was mine. I could tell.

I knocked a few times before the woman whom I did not recognize came to open the door. She narrowed her eyes at me, they went wide for a few seconds before her lower lips trembled. She swallowed hard, glancing behind her before turning to me.

"Erm, does Maurene... I mean, Miss Sherrh stay here?" Stupid question.

"Yes... yes, you can come in." She let the door wide enough for me to step in. I did, looking around, and breathed in the calm air in her house.

"I will get them for you." She told me, disappearing into the nearby corridor. Them? Does she know who I am?

Prolly, Maurene told her about me already. Was that really possible?

I had my seat, waiting for the kids to come. If Maurene was going to avoid me, then I would let her. My knee jerked forward, the anxiety that I was going to meet the kids without her being present didn't help me.

The door to the veranda opened and I twisted my neck to the side, Maurene.

She was muttering about flies being detrimental to health when she glanced up at me, she halted to a pause. She must be thinking that she was seeing a ghost. Well, she was right to a point. She was. I didn't believe that I was there too. "Nathaniel?" My name came out with a sigh. Was it of relief or fear?

I rose to my feet, suddenly remembering that the woman had told me that she was going to get the kids. She lied. Maybe she went to hide the kids from me.

"What are you doing here?" She bit out, marching towards me, her eyes widened in anger.

I watched how her chest heaved with every breath she took. She visibly shaking with rage.

"Cat got your tongue? What are you doing here?" She questioned once again.

I blinked, licking my lower dried lip. "I came... I came to see our kids."

"Our?" She scoffed ridiculously. "Our kids, you say, Nathaniel? The kids that you-"

"Yes! The kids that I chased out!" I cut her off, my fist clenching tight. "The kids I didn't know existed and chased out their mother unknowingly! The kids you hid from me all because of the rage and pain you feel toward me!" Tears peppered my eyelids as I confessed the words eating me up for the past weeks.

"You don't need to remind me of the atrocities that I committed! I know and I have ruminated on them. I understand the weight of what I did years back and I am here to ask... to ask for forgiveness!"

"I am sorry! I am sorry for being stupid and carried away! I am sorry for letting you go when all you ever did was for me! I am sorry that I lost you when you wanted me to hold you! I am sorry for being the reason for your pain and hurt! If I could have done better, I swear I would but-"

"Stop it! Don't... Don't you dare think that you can solve this by apologizing so easily! You... you hurt me. Broke me." Her voice cracked in a sob as she poked my chest with her finger. "You... you almost destroyed me and now? You want to take my kids away from me?"

"I will never let you do that!" She yelled at the top of her voice as she swore.