Divorced Ex-Luna Returns With Triplets
Chapter Eighty-One: The Full Moon Revelation

Nathaniel'S POV

One week, three days, and seventeen hours. I have not taken my bath nor have I stepped out of my office. Burying myself deep in the workload before me is the only thing in my head. I have been putting two and two together and trying to figure out who was behind the attack on the Luna Queen. I had already made a mental note to visit the Alpha King but the fact that I have been unable to bring myself to forgive myself was weighing me down.

For the past few days, I have been blaming myself for losing Maurene. To the truth, I was the one who sent her out and made her homeless. Even if I had not been aware of the kids, I should not have sent her out under that kind of heavy rain. That night, I was blinded by the rage and all I wanted was that she should leave. I just didn't expect her to leave like that and now I was being punished for it.

For years, I looked forward to having my own kids. I was already growing beyond ages and was showing no signs of falling in love. Even if Maurene hadn't shown up, the possibility that I would give love a chance was low.

I would have just picked up a woman and put my seed in her. But everything was different and complicated now. Maurene is married to Liam even though I know that their marriage is fake. I already knew since the beginning but pretended not to know. I just didn't speak up about some things because I knew she probably hated me for divorcing her. I didn't know she had more reason to loathe my existence.

But she hid my kids from me. That should be enough punishment for me.

I let out a groan, dropping the pen and pinching the bridge of my nose. I dared not take a break. Even the maids only bring meals once per day because they disturb me with their clumsiness which I hated. A knock rattles on the door and I flicked my eyes up, catching his scent already.

My jaw hardened and my fist clenched together. What was he doing here?

I didn't respond, thinking he would leave but the fucker actually twisted the doorknob and pushed the door open. He knew I was inside and still insisted on coming in. Was he asking for a death wish?

The moment he stepped, he locked the door, the sound of his breathing was all I could hear amidst my heart pounding through my ear drums.

"I remember I vividly told you to leave. Who asked you to return?" I asked, not glancing up at him yet.

He didn't respond.

"Grayson, you know I don't deal too well with betrayal and you decided to show me that even my closest friend and second-in-command, cannot be trusted." I gritted out.

"I didn't mean to." His gruff, almost animalistic voice came through and that was when I looked up at the bastard.

My eyes widened as anger coursed through my veins. "You didn't mean to?" I snorted. "You didn't mean to hide the fact that my wife was pregnant when I sent her out. You didn't mean to hide the fact that my wife went into labor and I was not there to encourage her. You didn't mean to hide the fact that I had kids and I missed five years of their lives? Tell me, Grayson." I demanded, slamming my fist against the desk.

"Tell me why you pretended all these years. I thought you were loyal to me. After losing Maurene, I considered you the only person who was capable of fighting for me but no, you have been against me since the very beginning." I shook my head, blinking as I rose to my feet.

"I had an enemy in my court while I watched out for the ones trying to intrude. How am I sure that you are not working with Liam?" I accused him, my chest heaving.

I knew Grayson would not stoop to that level of acting spy for a scoundrel like Liam but anything was possible at this point.

"Nathaniel," He started. My eyes ran over his state. It seemed like he was living in the wild and to be honest, he didn't look any better than I was. "You have every right to be mad at me but I was trying to protect her. That night was the night she got carried by Liam. I asked Andreas to follow him to make sure she was safe."

"He called back and told me that she was. I asked him to watch her for a few days then weeks and it turned into months. I knew you were going to hire him and with the way I had seen Maurene, she didn't want to have anything to do with you even if you were remorseful." He took a step further.

"Had it been you had met her then, you would not have lost her but also the kids, Nathaniel. I am not trying to justify my mistakes but-"

"Then what are you trying to tell me? In your explanation, you might want to add what happened on the night of the full moon as well because I think you have lots of things to say. I mean, I have been thinking that I was Alpha whereas you have been working as one for a long time." I clicked my tongue.

"Nathaniel, you got it all wrong. I don't want the Alpha position." He said.

I let out a wry chuckle. "Of course. You don't have to be in a position before you can use the power and authority of that position, Grayson. Your past actions have clearly indicated that." I tilted my head to the side, waiting for him to continue his explanation.

"The night of the full moon is a different case entirely. You fainted. Your wolf was on the edge because Maurene who happened to be your mate was close by. During those years when you both were... separated, you didn't act up but after meeting again and your wolf sensed her again, he was out for her so when you could not get him to her, you fainted."

He sure seemed to know a lot.

"I had to ask to come to you because you would not have been sated if she was not close to you." He finished up.

I narrowed my eyes on him. "What do you mean by that?"

"Your wolf would not have led other wolves under the full moon. All these while, he has been wanting to be close to his mate so the chance he gets to roam the street was that night. Probably you know or you didn't, it was way too dangerous for you to go in search of her."

"You could have scared the kids."

Silence descended in our midst. He has his reasons and I would not lie. His reasons were valid enough for me to forgive him. Some time ago, I told myself that Grayson was not at fault. I was the one who started all of these. I was to be blamed for it.

"In the past, I didn't dare interfere in your marriage with her but she treated you with sincerity. At one point I was envious of it and that was when you decided to reward her with a divorce notice. I was angry-"

"Yet you didn't show it. You thought in your heart that what sort was stupid man was this? How could someone be so blind and heartless at the same time? Probably you wanted to punch me as well, huh?" I let out a dry chuckle.

"I am now paying for it all. Is there any other thing you kept away from me?" I asked with all the sincerity in my heart.

There are things I cannot do without Grayson. And besides, I have made him my Beta. I just can't remove him immediately without looking for a replacement. It was already hard enough working alone.

After giving him a long stare, I turned around. "Maybe we should both take our baths. Our breaths stink and we smell." I said, arranging the files on my desk and the next thing I knew was that he pounced on me, pulling me in a strange hug. I pushed him off me in shock, glaring at him. "I didn't say I forgave you, you mutt." I hissed, exiting the office even though there was a smoke tempting to curl on my lips.

I cannot lose my Beta.