Divorced, But Not Broken
Divorced, but Not broken Chapter 195

The throbbing pain in my head was what had woken me up when I made a groin, turning inside my bed, before making a hard breath from the sharper pain coming from my ankle, f**k! What the f**k was going on anyway!?

The sounds of some stupid kid's song were playing at a lower volume when I sat up slowly, trying not to hurl, holding my hand with one hand and making a slight suffering sound of wanting to die from the brutal hangover that was holding me in its firm grasp. I needed to pee, really bad...oh, and throw up; that was also a big priority when I dragged my a*s, moving one leg at a time, seeing that the crib was empty, making me curse more, shit! Heidi was going to have a f*****g mansion of the money she was making off me when I did a fast glance at the phone, telling me that it was around two pm. Yeah, I was so going broke on this.

I was wearing too big sweatpants and a big knot on my stomach when I made a frown. What the f**k had happened anyway? I just remembered Joseph telling me stuff that I didn't really believe in when I saw the crutches, making me curse again, shit! Jonah! I slapped my hands over my mouth, trying to silence the sounds of a pure shock coming out from me, still trying to catch my breath. I thought that it was just some drunken dream, but now when my foot was neatly wrapped, and two crutches were leaning on the side table along with a glass of f*****g water!

I made some more curses when I sucked walking with crutches, really was that some fucking talent or what?! My ankle was hurting so fucking bad when I was forced to step on it a couple of times, making me take deep breaths from the pain when I finally made it out the hallway, stopping when I saw Tom standing like he had heard me, of course, he had... the whole fucking world heard me when I wasn't the best at keeping quiet.

My eyes dilated in fear when he was smirking; if he was here, that meant... oh god no... please don't tell me Jonah was here too... I was too fucking hungover to handle him being here and cursing my name, he had told me enough yesterday, and now when I was remembering it, I didn't want to see him.

He told me this was my fault and then he didn't even want fuck me when I felt his dick being hard like he could hide that from me! That bastard, I was going to kick him out of my home no matter if he owned the building!

"Good morning pretty.... Quite the show yesterday... "He made another chuckle when I wanted to flip him off for acting like I didn't tell him to stop talking to me, and still, he was here and walking around like I had asked him over, and I hadn't! He could get out, too, both!

"Tom, leave... and take that stupid guy you work for with you. I don't have the fucking energy to handle his fucking drama right now...." I was whining when my head was still killing me, and my bladder was about to burst. I just wanted to stop having all this pain! Tom's smile changed, it wasn't amused anymore, and he dropped his arms that had been crossed like he was testing me. I bet he was. He was an asshole like that, treating me like he could do that. I wasn't a Brown. No matter how much he was acting like it, I wasn't one of his stupid brothers!

"Jonah isn't here. I'm sorry, Andrea.... But he did take you back here and helped you with... well, everything..." he made a smirk again that I didn't like, so what? Jonah had seen me naked so many times that I was surprised he actually gave a shit about what happened to me.... Shit... I was wobbling on the stupid crutches when I was so tired, and the sound of Kira screaming in the background made me grit my teeth; this was going to be bad.

"Okay... sure... whatever... I bet he had to go back to Shailene and make her feel like she didn't have to fucking worried over him just leaving her at the restraint...." I tried to hop past him when he blocked me, making me even angrier. What the f**k was his problem anyway? I needed to pee!

"I don't know what's down between you guys, but..." he wanted to tell me more when I huffed, finally getting him to move over when I was looking at the bathroom. I just needed to pee!

"Don't fucking worry about it. I know you only tell me shit when I'm about to bolt anyway, and right now, I'm not fucking going anywhere, am I?!" I slammed the door in his face, probably making the kids scared, cursing myself for being so stupid when I turned over and stared at myself in the small mirror.

Holy shit, he even washed away my makeup.... Staring back at myself, I looked so bad. I was thirty-eight, and man, could I feel it now when my face was pale and bags under my eyes like I was dying more than just having wine and some champagne. I was so stupid, getting drunk, so fucking stupid, Andrea!

I didn't really believe that Kira hadn't banged the bathroom door once when I was done, tying the big knot on the stupid sweatpants again before having the t-shirt over. I was still mad at Jonah and at everyone else when I walked outside, or maybe limped was more of a correct term, when I came into the living room and saw Sophia playing with Jamie, clapping when he was sitting up, chewing on some toy that was all over the place.

Great. Her too.... Fucking Tom dragging her inside my home when she hated me, just like her daddy did.... I was still leaning against the wall when she looked up, losing whatever smile was on her face, yeah we were not on the best of terms, and... shit I did feel bad when she was sitting there on the floor looking so happy playing with her brother, even if there was an age gap of almost eighteen years between them.

"Andrea... hey..." she said my name with a slight twang that made me feel worse. She was making her statement loud and clear, she was not my friend anymore, and it was breaking my heart.

"Sophia... please.... I'm sorry for what I said, and... you can call me Andy... I..." she got up, taking Jamie along, making a happy noise when he saw me, he wanted me to hold him when I was still trying to get Sophia not to hate me, and I dint even know why; most people that did hate me, I couldn't care less, but I did care for her no matter what.

"I don't care, I'm just here for Kira, Noah, and Jamie... since you got f*****g drunk and forgot that your nanny wasn't going to stay overnight!" her voice was a whiplash. Shit, she sounded just like Buck right now, the same stern, commanding voice that made me want to say sorry again. She was the most like him, no matter how much her brothers were taking after him in appearance.

"...and me!" I frowned, hearing Tom chuckling behind me, holding Noah when she smiled at him, she did, and I was trying to take Jamie, that was reaching for me. I needed my baby more than anything right now. "Yeah.... To too.... Andy, what are you doing?! You can fall over with him!?" I reached my arms back again, feeling like I wanted to cry when she was right. I couldn't hold him standing on one leg; that was my nightmare!

"Shit..." I was mumbling, still feeling like my body was breaking down on me, when her eyes softened the slightest like she could see my pain, or maybe it was the fact that Tom had his arm around her making me frown. Was I the only one that didn't like that? "Let me help you pretty, to the couch... just like old times..." he chuckled again when Sophia looked jealous when I sighed. She had no reason to be. I was never interested in him, only in his stupid friend that had taken me home after what happened last night... yeah that was still a mess...

I hated that he was smirking when he lifted me up like I was nothing giving over Noah to Sophia, holding them both like a pro. I was down again when Sophia walked over, giving me Jamie and cuddling me immediately. Noah was already going for his face with his hands before I stopped him, making him feel better. I was so lost, but at least my kids loved me, no matter what.

"Where is Kira!?" I looked up, scared releasing I hadn't seen her, and let's face it, this wasn't that big of an apartment that I couldn't hear her moving around, Kira the last of all.

Tom made a sigh when Sophia looked even happier. To my worry.... Please don't tell me Jonah had taken her with him!

"Oh, she is with Joseph. I wanted to take her outside and shop, I wanted to come along, but someone was whining over being stuck as the babysitter, so I stayed...." Sophia was using the same tone she had on me when Tom sighed as he regretted ever saying it, making me smirk.

Look at that; look at the stupid guy he was, being totally steamed and rolled by Sophia with one look. I was glad I wasn't the only one feeling that way.... She was f*****g dangerous just like her father like that, didn't take a no even when you tried to stop them; actually, she reminded me of someone else..... Mary.... I giggled more when he made a frown, knowing I was laughing at him, whipped.

"Alright.... At least he feels better than me than...." I was sighing again, leaning my head back, having the boys climbing me, but I didn't care, let them. I wanted them to stay like this forever, and it wasn't going to be easy when the couple in front of me left; in fact, I had no idea how the f**k I was going to make it with my ankle for the next two weeks shit....

"Sophia.... I hate to ask you, but could you stay here with me? At least until Friday.... When... when your dad comes over and takes the kids home...." I was sounding bitter, saying home, I had no home. Never had one and probably never would; that was the hard truth. "I don't know... I wanted to spend more time with Tomas before..." she stopped when Tom looked like he wanted that too, shit. She was going back, still had to finish school and become a f*****g legal adult before coming back here, shit again.

"It's okay, I will figure it out.... I know that I'm not your biggest supporter, but... I'm not going to be the one that stands between you.... I'm not your mother...." I said the last words with a mix of amusement and sadness when she felt terrible, she did, and I knew it. I hadn't tried to make her feel guilty, but she did, f**k.

"Couldn't you call dad and ask him to come over? I know he wouldn't say no to that. He wants to spend more time with them..." she made another face when I was the one that felt guilty. She was still trying to make Buck and I get back together, like some bad version of a parent trap... yeah no, that was never going to happen. I did love Buck, but he had hurt me badly, you couldn't fix that with us living together for four days, and I bet he wouldn't agree to that either.

"I can call him, but he won't say yes, and I know that... Sophia... its ok... just... you guys can go, do whatever you want...." I made a smile when Tom felt bad too. Great, so now everyone was standing inside my apartment and feeling bad. What a great day to be hungover on.

"Mommy!" I made a jerking motion, almost killing me when Kira was screaming, coming inside, making her brother laugh when she was running towards me, practically jumping on me before being snatched up in the last second by Sophia, and not her slow boyfriend that hadn't even seen it coming.

"Hello!? I'm fucking carrying shit here, and it is ruining my Loro Piana with how much I'm sweating! f*****g driver, I'm going to rate him so bad...." I made smiled, seeing the man coming inside. He was wearing a t-shirt, jacket, and sunglasses, looking red in the face and angry when he dropped the many bags on the floor. Kira already wanted to start digging inside of them, with Sophia holding her back.

"Joseph... how are you looking so... neat?" I was staring at him, sure he was sweating like a pig, having Kira and shopping. Oh, I got why he looked like he wanted to understand how anyone had kids. She was a handful.

"I'm fucking amazing, that's why now why are we looking like somebody died? Please tell me it's Jonah..." he was mumbling when pushing up his shades, showing me his young face that didn't look hungover. Not one inch of his perfect face had the same wear and tore as mine, shit. I wished I was twenty-six again.... Didn't get hungover like this back then...

"Joey..." Tom was the one scowling at him for being a whiny bitch that wished the life out of Jonah like I hadn't done that a thousand times, and he was Kira's father.

"What?! We all heard Andrea talk, she is no fucking better, and I'm surprised that Kira is more behaved than she ever was..." I made a smirk hearing that. She was what!? Well-behaved, yeah, sure, only when she wanted something!

"Still, behave... since we are having the kids around us....." I made a real smile seeing Tom's concerned eyes. He really thought that I hadn't said fuck around Kira since she was born; the only reason she wasn't saying it was Buck, and that was the truth. "Yeah, sure, I won't say anything more, you big dumb...." Joseph stopped when Tom made a face that made him stop. Oh, he was scared of him, and he wasn't a fighter, unlike his former friend.

"Alright.... Just stop it, and Kira, what did you make Uncle Joseph buy you?" I switched my eyes to Kira, which made a big smile like she just had been waiting for me to ask. Joseph made an offended face to my smirk. He didn't like hearing that. "First of all, I'm not some uncle; that sounds like I'm old, and second... nobody made me do shit..." he stopped when Tom made another face and cleared his throat when Kira was beaming when Sophia had let her go, already diving into the bags. "Look at it, mommy isn't it pretty!?" Kira was holding up a pink dress with a unicorn on it when I made a laugh, yes, it was so pretty, and she had at least ten of them.

"Yeah, it's so pretty baby, goes put it on so we can see you..." she made a beaming smile again and was gone when Joseph sat down beside me, still sweaty and having Noah climbing over him. Yeah, there was no mercy in this home. "Alright.... So, we can go then?" Tom made a smile when Sophia was frowning, making him lose whatever he was saying, making me smirk more. What the hell was I worried over? He thought she was this sweet girl, like everyone else, before she showed her fierce colors.

"No, we can't leave. Who is going to help Andy out with the kids? She can't walk around and let alone carry anyone, Tomas!" Sophia looked at him disapproving when. I started to laugh for real now; it was official, he was dating his mother!

"Goddamn idiot...." Joseph was seeing it too, murmuring it when he was lifting Noah up a down, making him giggle, to my surprise, so he did like kids then. He sure didn't seem like the type of guy. Just saying....

"Okay, but... I need to leave and..." Tom was staring back at her when she sighed like she was learning just how much he was around. He didn't have time for anything else but being Jonah or doing shit for him, well at least she was about to know that I wasn't lying about that part.... I hated being right when she was looking hurt. He was going to leave her.

"It's fine. We can look at what Kira is showing us... maybe drink some water...." I was making a trying smile when Tom looked grateful when I was trying to help him not seem like he was an asshole because he was.

"I'm just going to do this, and then I'm coming back, okay Daisy, it's not going to take all night like last time... I promise..." Tom was making one of his smiles that made you believe him, and I wasn't going to say shit. I knew that I would, and it was breaking my heart seeing that Sophia wanted to believe him, and it would hurt when he wouldn't return.

"Alright... okay... yeah, it's fine, we can hang out here. I'm not leaving Andy anyway...." I was grateful for that. I was she had no idea when I was still so fucking hungover and just wanted to die right where I was sitting, still snuggling Jamie, that was making everything better.

"Bye...." Joseph was still heaving with Noah when Tom kissed Sophia and showed me just how guilty he was feeling, at least he was, unlike Jonah.

"Are you working out with my baby??" I was staring at him, smirking as I had caught him, and here I was thinking that he didn't mind being around my kids!?

"Hey, after carrying you last night, I realized how fucking out of shape I am. Oh, and I'm firing that loser that told me I was in mint condition...." Joseph smirked more when he stopped and sat down Noah in his lap, looking at me like he didn't understand why the fun had ended.

I rolled my eyes hearing that... I didn't want to be reminded of what had happened, being drunk and meeting Jonah, my ankle sprained... it was the worst combination of them all. I was always lucky enough to get them at the same time.

"Shit...." Sophia was staring after the front door being closed when Kira was back. She was happy she had an audience; this might be the best day of her life, having a grown-up with enough money to buy her whatever she wanted, and she wanted everything. "Sophia, listen, sweetheart, this is just how it's going to be, believe me. I used to be him, soo glad I'm over that...." Joseph was trying to help, and he failed because he was a bastard with zero social skills when you saw his personality. "Soph, let's just watch Kira, and then please, can someone give me water?" I was already having trouble swallowing when she gave the nod, looking like she was starting to get that too... shit I hated being right.

"I can get you water, mommy!" Kira was already running towards the kitchen when I made a sigh. Great, so I had to mop up that, too, so nobody broke their neck walking around in the kitchen.

"I'll help...." Sophia was following her, Kira was so happy, and I was so hungover, making hurt noises every time Jamie was moving around, trying to get closer like he wasn't already glued to my side. He was such a momma's boy.

"Poor girl, sweet and fucking trusting...." Joseph was looking like he didn't know what to say either. I sighed; at least she was here, and I could tell Buck she was safe. He sure wasn't happy about her dating Tom. I was surprised he hadn't blown up and dragged her back home. I wouldn't want to be a part of that fight, that was for sure.

"Shut the fuck up, Joseph, let's just watch Kira have on whatever you bought her...." I was sick of hearing him when frown as I offended him. What? I didn't know my telling him to shut up was the worst thing he could hear.

"I didn't just buy dresses for her, Andrea, please. I can't take it watching you walk around in clothes that are too big and look like a homeless person. I want you sharp when you are coming up to my floor; this, whatever you are wearing, is not going to work!" He was nodding to my sweatpants and t-shirt. What? I was at home, and I was hungover. I was not putting on some damn dress right now!

"Great, but I'm not changing shit right now...." I had no idea how Jonah had dressed me without hurting me, and I must have passed out at that time since I had no memory of getting back here or what had happened.

"Fine. Let's get this to your wardrobe then..." he was getting up when I pulled back Noah, seeing the annoyed man walking past Kira, that was going too fast, spilling all the water over his designer jeans, making me start to laugh since I knew he was going to be so pissed about that.

"Oh... I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Joseph...." Kira was staring at him like she was waiting for it too, the blowup when he had frozen like he couldn't believe that just happened.

"It's okay, princess, it's just water... your mommy did something worse yesterday, so I'm not mad..." I stopped laughing when he patted her head; sure, it didn't look that natural, but he didn't seem to get that annoyed either when Kira did a smile and walked back into the kitchen, ready for another round of water that might make it back to me or not.

"Hey... you are fucking great with kids... how does that feel, Uncle Joseph?" I smirked when he flipped me off, going for my bedroom, leaving me with twins that were starting to fight to my moaning; here we go again... mommy just wanted to sleep...