Why My Mate Cries
Chapter 94

ALIYAH’S POV

Days and I finally had the motivation and strength to be outside with my friends who kept on asking for me.

When I went out of my room and went downstairs, I saw Alice and Liana who were eyeing me as I walked toward them.

Alice hugged me all of the sudden, my eyes widened because of that but after a few seconds, I smiled and let myself feel her warmth.

My wolf, Kae, was delighted that I finally would spend time with other people aside from Jaxon.

“Oh goodness, we missed you!” That time around, it was Liana who talked, I saw tears brimming in her expressive eyes.

Being with them made me feel guilty about how many times I brushed them off. They had been trying to get a hold of me but I was too in the depth of grievance to even think of anything. Not even them.

“We are so worried, Luna Aliyah,” Alice told her after she loosened the hug.

I gave a thin smile and glanced at the two of them. Ever since I came back, I neglected a lot of people and until now, I was not in the right condition for anything.

Seemed like Liana noticed my silence and instead of asking, she suggested something else instead.

“Why don’t we go to the nearest pub instead? I’m craving booze in my system.”

I chuckled hearing that. Of all things, she would crave alcohol! And yet, none of us complained about it and instead, we found ourselves entering the place.

All the little bit of happiness I felt by being with the two vanished when I saw the commotion happening inside.

Many of the wolves were looking in the direction of my mate and Jaxon who was near getting into a physical fight!

With gnashing teeth, I went to them and pushed Reid away from Jaxon whom he was about to punch.

“Seriously, Reid! What did Jaxon do to you to act like you wanted to kill him any moment? Do you think I didn’t notice how murderous you are glaring at him for days?!” I burst out and I saw how he was taken aback by my words. Guilt crept in me but instead, I shove it away and looked if he hurt Jaxon.

“Siding with him, huh? What, you no longer care for your mate? Is that it, Aliyah?”

That made me eye him again, and now he fully got my attention. I could not believe he was not seeing the reason why I was angry. He was pouring his anger and frustration on Jaxon, someone who did not even do something against him!

“He doesn’t deserve your anger, Reid. What the hell is happening to you?”

He cocked his head and directly captured my eyes with his. “You happened!” He growled in with so much bitterness.

My mouth hang open and I no longer care if everyone could hear how we fought right there and then. “What the hell did I do?!”

Mockingly, he smirked with bloodshot eyes. “You are not even aware? You are ignoring me, Aliyah! No matter how much I try to get near you, you are always brushing me away and choosing this fucktard’s company instead of your mate, instead of me!”

It made me shut my mouth and gazed away from him. No matter how hard I tried to nudge all the bitterness I was feeling, it was nonsense because it remained still. I was in too much misery to try to understand where he was coming from.

Instead, I walked away from there and went back home. I tucked myself into bed and let myself tear up.

/”You should talk to Reid, Aliyah. How are you supposed to deal with everything if you are not going to talk to him? You can’t ignore him forever.”/

Kae started filling my mind again but I did not want to do that. He was at fault! Why would I talk to him? He kept on dealing with things in anger. He even dragged Jaxon into our mess. How was I supposed to listen to him?

Even earlier I could clearly hear how sarcastically he fought with me through sharp words!

“I don’t want to,” I simply told Kae.

My time alone got interrupted when all of the sudden, I heard the door opening. Because of that, I sat up from the bed and I saw who was eyeing me with seriousness evident in his orbs.

“Let’s talk, Aliyah.”

It felt like my b***d was boiling again after seeing him and hearing his voice. With eyebrows furrowed, I yelled, “I don’t want to talk to you, Reid! Leave! You don’t even care about me!”

There was something tugging my heart and my stomach churned when I saw how I hurt him and offended him through my statement. I gazed away and nervously cried but I quickly wiped the traitor of tears.

“I-I need some space, Reid. I need time to think and breathe, so, please… I’m so suffocated. Just leave me alone.”

I did not look at him when I said all those words that were driven by my irrationality. I knew I was plain angry and yet I let it reign in my veins that I ended up uttering words as sharp as knives.

“Is that what you really want?” he asked in a low baritone voice. It made me shiver, it instilled fear in me. Not fear because of his anger, but fear because he might get tired of understanding me.

Yet, closing my eyes tightly, I bowed my head and said another word, “Yes… I don’t want to see you in the meantime. I just need time for everything.”

I heard how he howled painfully and when I looked at him that time, he already turned his back and left the place without saying anything after those words I mumbled.

There seemed like a block in my throat and all I did at that moment was watching him fade from my sight. I knew it was already too late to get those words back but deep inside I also knew that perhaps, we needed space. We needed to clear up our heads.