Why My Mate Cries
Chapter 92

ALIYAH’S POV

“Your brother, Shawn Harper died, Aliyah. Unfortunately, even though he’s an Alpha and he has capabilities for fast healing, his body cannot keep up with the b***d loss. Some of his organs are ruptured as well. That led him to death.”

My eyes widened hearing what Jaxon disclosed. Of course, I was surprised. Knowing him and knowing what he could do, I always saw him as someone formidable. He looked undefeatable to the point that hearing his death felt like a nightmare in the middle of nowhere.

If I would be truthful to myself, despite everything that had happened, despite what he did, I could not help but feel sad. He was still a brother, a family at that.

Yet again, those signs of grieving disappeared totally when I remembered how he hurt me the past. How he made me suffer, how he connived with that witch. He was allied to her, to Samarra who was the reason why my baby died! Anger crept into my system after remembering how miserable I had become because of them.

Why would I give him my tears of mourning when he was one of the reasons why I was also in the pit of hell right now?

“I’m sorry for your loss, Aliyah,” Jaxon told me with saddened eyes.

I shook my head and gave him a grim smile. “Hmm… It’s fine, Jaxon. Thank you for coming here and telling me what truly happened.”

Silence occupied the atmosphere after hearing that. For a moment, everything that had occurred went through my mind.

“Are you fine?”

I blinked a little and had the urge to say no because I was really not fine, given how my life turned sour ever since I lost my child. But instead, uttered my half-truth. “Yes. I’m just glad that he’s no longer living. So he will no longer harm others just like he did to me.”

Right after saying that, I stood up and walked away from there. Before I fully go, I saw Reid’s eyes on me, looking concerned but I gazed away and went to my room to be alone again.

It was another night of mourning, another night of over thinking how I lost my child over and over again. And until that very moment, I was still hurt by how little Reid was showing his pain. That even though he already told me that his position was hindering him from grieving, I still felt pained because I felt alone in this hurtful journey.

When the sunray touched my skin, I slowly opened my eyes and decided to somehow walk around instead of staying another day in my room.

Kae was particularly happy because of that decision.

/”I thought we will stay there the rest of the day again!”/ she exclaimed happily and it made me arch the side of my lips a bit.

On my way, I saw Jaxon who was preoccupied while walking. I walked toward him and poked his arm making him glance at me with eyebrows furrowed.

His expression softened after realizing that it was me.

“Heading to somewhere?” I asked him.

He licked his lower l*p and stared at nowhere. “Just wondering around, how about you?” he asked.

“Well, I’m heading to the lake in the forest. Want to come?”

Without a hint of hesitation, he nodded and walked with me side by side heading to the place I was eyeing.

When we reached the lake, we settled there and sat on the log of a tree.

“Penny for your thoughts?” he said in the middle of our silence.

Somehow, having someone to talk to urge me to say what I truly felt.

“I’m just… mad, I felt like I was the only one grieving for the death of our child, Jaxon. How did he easily move on? And why was it that no matter how hard I try, I could never keep up with him? Those questions kept on bugging me or perhaps, I was just too blinded by my pain that I failed on seeing things correctly.”

I wiped the lone tears that kept on streaming down my cheeks. It was pathetic to cry like this around people, I felt like I was showing my vulnerability too much but since it was Jaxon, a friend of mine, I was trying to trust him with my pain.

“Your feelings are valid, Aliyah.”

That was the only thing he told me but I felt like by doing so, he ease a lighter part of what I was feeling. Perhaps, because I could not see my mate mourning, I felt like I was too slow in the process of accepting, but hearing that it was valid made me feel alleviated.

Instead of indulging in that topic and keeping the heavy air, I asked him something else. “What about you live here, Jaxon? For sure the Jewel Pack will welcome you.”

His eyes showed that he was surprised and after seconds he chuckled.

“Nah. Your mate will kill me for sure.”

My lips pursed. I knew Reid’s tendency to be possessive but I knew he would understand if I wanted to keep a friend with me here.

“No, I promise. He will welcome you… After all, knowing what happened in the Silver moon, for sure it will be hard to stay there. So dwell here instead, please?” I encouraged him.

He clicked his tongue and thought for a while. I knew he was skeptical of this because joining another pack would be another adjustment, and for sure, he was also worried about those he would leave. Knowing Jaxon’s nature, he would think of them first before himself.

“We can aid those that are left in the Silver moon while you stay here. And oh! Reid already promised that he will do that so you don’t need to think about anything. What can you say?”

Sighing because of how persuasive I became, Jaxon had no other choice but to agree. He just nodded his head and smiled a bit, indicating that he would do as I say. That made me feel satisfied, not because I wanted that but because I was also afraid that he would encounter trouble the more he stayed in their pack that had already collapsed.