The Unwanted Luna
Chapter 52

It's been a week since I came back and it has been busy. We were able to transport children, teenagers, pregnant women and elderly people to my kingdom.

Everyone there was happy and glad to see me despite me not having my powers. They still treated me as the queen. As their ruler and that warmed my heart. Their undying love and ending loyalty. Saying goodbye to Tristan had been hard. I didn't want to let him go but I also knew that I had to keep him safe. That I had to get my powers back if I stood any chance against Agron and Khaos.

We were leaving today, while the rest stayed behind. To fight and also help the other packs that had been affected. I tried to convince everyone that I would rather do this on my own, but Nolan flat out refused. He insisted that he was going with me, and with that so did Xavier and Bianca.

I wondered if Xavier wanting to come had anything to do with Nolan. Would he even have volunteered if Nolan hadn't? Not that I cared, I was just curious.

We were traveling lightly. Hopefully, we would be through with this quest by the end of the week. Time was running out and the two dangerous pair were causing nothing but chaos and mayhem. The quicker I got this over and done with, then now I could focus on fighting them. "You ready?" Nolan pops into my room.

He scares the hell out of me, which makes me release a startled scream.

"Jeez, you scared me...is this how everyone felt when I materialized out of thin air?" I asked him, trying to calm down my beating heart.

He gave me a grin. "Probably."

He then holds his hand out for me and I take it. He leads to the bed, where we sit down.

"What's up?" I asked him.

There seemed to be something bothering him. Something he wanted to get off his chest. So I sit patiently while I wait for him to gather his thoughts.

"There's something I wanted to tell you". He took a deep breath. "I should have told you earlier but I thought I had time. I want to tell you now because we never know about tomorrow. We may be here one day and not the next day. Not even being a deity guarantees that you'll live forever."

I nodded my head in understanding. After all, what happened to me was proof enough that we never know what is in store for us. If it wasn't for the fact that Hades had my back, I would still be dead.

"I want you to know that I love you" he says, looking at me straight in the eyes.

His beautiful eyes were searing into me. Leaving me feeling like I have been exposed for the world to see.

"I know that Nolan and I love you too" I replied.

He sighs. "I don't mean that...I mean that I am in love with you. I've been in love with you for the past four years and I was waiting for you to be ready. Waiting for the perfect time to tell you"

I stare at him. Seeing the truth in his eyes. Gods did I want to believe him, but how can I? If Xavier didn't want me then how could Nolan want me? I knew he cared for me, but I never thought that it went deeper than that.

I liked Nolan a lot and not because he was a crutch, but because he was the one who showed me how a man treats a woman. I kept our relationship simple and sexual because I was afraid of getting hurt. You can't spend more than five years with someone and not develop feelings for them, but I never thought that the feeling would be reciprocated.

Nolan loves sex, plain and simple, so in order to protect myself, I made myself believe that it was purely physical for him.

"Nolan..." I began, unable to form a sentence.

Despite everything, his feelings for me and mine for him, isn't he already spoken for? I begged him to mark Bianca, so now he is out of limit. Unlike Xavier and Bianca, I would never purposely choose to hurt someone. I have been there, I know how painful it is so how can I put someone else through that?

'You forget that Nolan has only marked her. He has no feelings whatsoever towards her. He only did it as a favor to you' Onyx pops in my head.

'So you are okay with him being in love with us? What about Ace? Xavier is still our mate until we can break the bond'

I wanted the bond gone. Mainly because I hated that it wanted me to fall at Xavier's feet. I now understand Xavier a little better. It's hard fighting feelings that you don't want to feel, just because a bond dictates so.

'Don't get me wrong, I love Ace and I always will for the way he put you first. But you have to remember that I wasn't connected to him the way you were because I hadn't come to be at that time. As for Xavier, what he did to you is despicable. I don't think I can ever look at him as a mate. I will always remember what he did', she finishes.

I stare at Nolan, who is looking at me patiently. Waiting for me to say something, but what can I say? We were both tied at the moment.

Onyx continues. 'I think for the first time you should put yourself first. Find out what you want. Is your love for Nolan deep? Are you in love with him or does your love just stem from being grateful to him? Can you see yourself with him in future? Can you live with seeing him with another woman? I'm not saying he will fall in love with Bianca, he hates her too much for that, but there will come a time when he will want to settle down and have a family. Are you okay with that?"

"Will you be fine with seeing him with someone else? As for Xavier, removing the issue of the bond, can you see yourself with him? Building a life with him? Loving him despite everything he did? Are you still in love with him, a love that is now wrapped in bitterness and resentment? You need to answer those questions first, Lia. Before anything. You need to be honest with yourself before you can be honest with Nolan" she finishes.

I see and understand what she means. Can I honestly live without Nolan? Taking out the issue of gratefulness towards him. The same with Xavier, taking out the bond and my resentment towards him. Can I genuinely see myself loving him?

"I know you want me to say something but I can't right now, Nolan. Onyx has given me food for thought and before I can give you an honest answer I need to be honest with myself first", I tell him honestly.

He smiles. "That's fine with me. I understand and I'll wait till you can figure things out", he tells me, caressing my cheek.

This is one of the things I love about Nolan. He understands me and he is never pushy. Sure, like any other deity out there, he is dominant and can sometimes be arrogant, but he has never pushed to have his way, not caring what I want.

A growl reverberates through the room. Nolan and I turned to find Xavier at the door, wearing a scowl.

"We're ready to leave" he says through gritted teeth.

I nod at the same time Nolan drops his hand from my face.

"I'll see you at the front" Nolan says before disappearing.

I stood up and take my bag. After making sure everything in the room is in place, I turned to walk out. Xavier's hand stops me.

Sighing, I turned to face him. "What do you want now, Xavier? Shouldn't we be leaving already?"

I see different emotions pass through his eyes but they're too fast for me to understand them.

He looks at me but doesn't say anything. His hands come up and he pushes my hair behind my ear. I froze at the intimate gesture.

"I'm sorry, I know I have never said this before, but I am sorry. I'm really sorry for everything I put you through. All you did was love me like a mate should and I punished you for that. I only pray that you can give me a chance even though I don't deserve it" he tells me, his earlier anger completely drained from his face.

"Look Xavier, I don't think you want me for me. What I think you want is the idea of a mate and I represent that. You didn't want me years ago, never loved me. Why is it that you all of a sudden want me now? I am still the same person I was years ago, so what makes you want me now when you did not back then?" I asked him.

At this point, I doubt Xavier even knew what love is. He has a vague idea but I don't think he fully understands it.

When he doesn't say anything, I push past him and leave. Minutes later, I was outside. Nolan is the first to join me, then Bianca and lastly Xavier. He glares when he sees Nolan standing next to me but doesn't say anything.

"Are you ready to leave?" Selene appeared, scaring me for the second time today.

"Damn it...would stop appearing out of thin air" I grumbled.

"Now you know how it felt every time you did it to me", Sophie said, joining us.

I glare at her and she just laughs.

"Okay, so here is a map to the forest...you have to be careful. Not only is the forest dangerous, but also because I hear that Agron knows that you're alive. It's safe to say that he will try to prevent you from getting your powers back", Selene says, and I nod.

I take the map and we say our goodbyes. We were about to leave when a big portal opens and Cerberus steps out of it followed by Hades.

Sophie and Bianca scream and scramble back while the men take a defensive stance. Cerberus ignores them and rushes towards me. His big paws shaking the ground. All three heads lick me, leaving me soaking wet and covered in saliva. "Hi Cerberus" I murmured.

He sits down, his tongues rolling out his mouth panting. He towered over everyone but he didn't seem like he minded. I guess he was used to it.

My wet clothes disappear and new ones appear. I thanked Selene before turning to Hades.

"Came to wish me good luck?" I asked him with a smile.

"Something like that" he smiles back and damn, is his smile gorgeous. Making me wonder why he doesn't smile often.

"Cerberus, here, will accompany you...he will be there to offer you protection", Hades adds.

I stare at him in shock. "He can't accompany me...Look at his size, not to mention his three heads!" I shouted.

Was the man crazy? Cerberus would attract human attention.

Chuckling, he says "Oh, that's easily fixable... Transform Cerberus."

The moment he says that, the dog transforms and changes into a smaller black dog that looks like a German shepherd. It also had one head, which was a relief.

"In case you're in danger, he will transform to protect you" Hades says before continuing. "This is also for you, if you need my help, just whisper my name to the stone. I will locate you and come."

He hands me a beautiful necklace. It was a flower with a black shiny rock in the middle. I take it and put it on.

"Thank you Hades" I smiled. Rising up on my toes, I kissed his cheek.

I hear two sets of growls behind me but I ignore them. Grateful to Hades.

I call Cerberus and he comes to me. I bid Hades goodbye before turning to the SUV waiting for me. I didn't know how things were going to end, but I felt like this little trip was going to transform all for four of us.