Finding Her True Alpha
Chapter 152: New Flame Meeting the Old Flame

Alpha lan

I woke up with my stomach in knots, anxious about today and seeing Ashlyn again. The last time I saw her, she died. And that pain was still fresh in my mind, remembering the life fading from her eyes as she bled out. Even though we have talked and she even told me about what happened with the former Fae King. It’s surreal to me she is alive and well.

After everything that had happened between Ashlyn and me, I never thought I’d ever feel happiness again until l found Ava. She was fast asleep snuggled into my side as I lay awake staring at my ceiling feeling anxious about seeing the person who I thought I loved more than anything and then feeling guilty about being here with Ava.

I knew Ashlyn had her mates and her kids, but there would always be this part of me that wished I never fvcked up. I promised myself I would be better for Ava because she deserves the best. She deserves the best version of myself that I can give her. Jax still hasn’t marked her, but he has become more protective of her, especially around unmated males. I know it bothers her and hopefully Ashlyn can talk some sense into him when we visit.

Change is hard, and as much as I can say that I love Ava, which I do, Ashlyn will always have a place heart. I probably wouldn’t even be going today if it wasn’t for Ava dying to meet her. Seeing her always brings up feelings and the reality that she will never be mine again.

Things worked out for the best. I know she’s happy and Ava makes me happy. She’s sassy and fun and I found myself opening up to her more and more. It also helps that she is the least judgmental person I’ve ever met. Someone else would have left after finding out that their mate was still in love with someone else, but not Ava. And I remember little things about her, like her coffee order or her favorite foods. Just little things that she likes that a mate should notice.

Maybe I’ll feel better after I mark her. I do want to mark her and I love her. It’s just hard to let go of a dream that you had for so long, even if you fvcked it up. And I fvcked it up. But my f**k up led me to Ava, so i can’t be too mad about it. Just like with Ashlyn, it led her to Mason and eventually Derek. I guess you could say we are all where we are meant to be.

“Why are you up so early?” Ava mumbled, pulling me from my thoughts.

“I’m sorry, I just couldn’t sleep.” I told her.

“Feeling anxious?” She asked me and I sighed.

“We don’t have to go.” Ava said, sitting up on her elbow to look up at me.

“I know you want to meet her. Sometimes it’s just hard. I haven’t seen her since I saw her die.” I told her and she nodded.

“I’m sorry, Ava. It’s weird, before I used to tell her how I felt about her, and now I tell her how I feel about you.” I said.

“And how do you feel about me?” She asked me.

“I love you. You’re my Luna, and I couldn’t imagine my life without you.” I told her and she leaned up, pressing her l!ps into mine and I smiled against her l!ps.

“l love you.” She said, pulling her l!ps from mine. I could stare into her big brown eyes for the rest of my life and never get bored.

“There is no rush. We will go at our own speed and if that means that Jax has to take a year to finally accept me, then that’s what it takes. I think it’s even harder for him because her wolf is gone” She said, and Jax whimpered in my head. Ashlyn never shifted in front of me and Jax never told me the reason. He could see and communicate with Tundra through our link, but only if they allowed it. And now she’s gone.

“Thank you, Ava. I really don’t deserve you.” I told her and she chuckled.

“Maybe not, but I love you. Lily and I will always be here.” She told me, snuggled back into my chest. I leaned down, k!ssing her head.

“What do you think, buddy?” I asked my wolf.

“I think ‘d like to meet Lily and Ava. I’m not ready to mark her, but I care about her and her wolf.” He said, and I was happy with his progress.

“Jax wants to meet you and Lily,” I told Ava. And she sat up to look at me, surprised by what I had just said.

“Really?'” She asked me, almost in tears.

“In the morning?” l asked her, and she nodded. Ava snuggled back into me and I pulled her close.

“Thank you, Jax.” She whispered.

It’s the afternoon, lan, Ava and Alex are almost ready for me to open a portal. Pacing the driveway, trying to burn off my anxious energy. I haven’t seen lan since the day I died. I spoke to him but now I’m about to meet his fated mate. lan says she is excited about meeting me, but I was feeling awkward. lan and I have a past and it’s not all relationship stuff. We were best friends even before we started dating. He was my first k!ss, and I did everything with him.

And now my entire life has changed. I’ve had meetings with councils, learning policies, taking care of the kids. We even started trying to have another one, as Sage convinced Mason to let me go with her. He just didn’t know the real reason. It’s weird how one moment could change my life completely. And now his life has too. I’m happy that he found someone, and she sounds wonderful. But sometimes I think about what things would have been like if lan and I were still together and then I feel guilty because I love my mates and our babies.

“You okay?” Mason asked beside me, pulling me out of my thoughts. I didn’t even notice that he was pacing beside me.

“Yeah.” I breathed out. He took my hand in his, lacing our fingers together.

“Baby, it’s okay. I understand.” He said, and I sighed.

“I’m sorry, Mason.” I told him.

“Nothing to be sorry for. I’m the one that gets to see you na*ked.” He chuckled, pulling me to his side.

“Really?” l giggled. I know he was trying to distract me.

“Among other things,” he said, wiggling his eyebrows.

“You’re incredibly lucky you’re so se*xy,” I told him, and he raised an eyebrow.

“And I’m good with my mouth,” he whispered, leaning in.

“l guess I’ll give you that,” I told him. He pulled me into his chest, leaning forward, grabbing my a*ss. He picked me up, and I wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck.

“You guess?” He mumbled, k!ssing my neck.

“I think Derek would also agree.” I giggled, and he squeezed my a*ss.

“You’re lucky we have guests coming to take that naughty a*ss of yours upstairs to bed.” His voice was husky with lvst. Making my panties w*et.

“Baby, I can smell how w*et you are.” He gr0aned, and I l!cked his l!ps, causing him to shiver and goosebumps to erupt all over him.

“That was mean.” He pouted, and I giggled.

“You’ll just have to spank me later.” I told him with a smirk. Before anything else could happen, my phone chimed in the back pocket of my jeans. Mason let out a gr0an, smashing his face into my neck.

“That’s probably, lan.” I giggled.

“The worst timing,” Mason mumbled.

“oh, you’re fine. Go get the babies and Derek.” I told him before he put me back down.

“Fine, but you owe me,” he said, pecking my l!ps, before walking back inside to get the others while I checked my phone. To my surprise, it wasn’t lan but Nathan.

Nathan: Sis, we still have found nothing of Ryan. No fingerprints, no DNA or family. He seems to have been a ghost, but we will keep looking.

Me: Thanks Nathan. I’ll think of some ideas about where we could look and get back to you. My phone chimed in my hand, and this time, it was lan. He said that they were ready and waiting in the driveway. I looked up to see my mates with our babies coming out of the castle, heading towards me.

“Was that him?” Mason asked, and I nodded. “I’ll tell them about what Nathan said later. I opened up a portal to the front of the Blue Moon pack house. lan, Alex and Ava walked through.

“That was so cool.” Ava breathed out, making me chuckle.

“You must be Ava. It’s nice to finally meet you,” I said to her. She was beautiful, with her dark hair and brown eyes. lan got lucky.

“And you must be the first Alpha female,” she said, and I was a little stunned. There’s no way I was the first female alpha. Was leven an alpha?

“Is that true?” I turned and asked Mason.

“Women aren’t allowed to be made alphas. The real reason my father was pushing so hard for me to find my mate,” Ava answered.

“Well, we are just going to change that,” I told her.

“You didn’t know?” she asked me.

“No, my father always told me l’d be an alpha. I just assumed that males and females could be made alphas.

“I told he. How the hell did we make it to this point and never had a female alpha?

“Maybe your father was going to change the law” Derek said, and | looked at him.

“There’s an actual law?” I asked, stunned.

“My father only had a daughter, so his beta’s son will take over our pack.” Ava told me.

“Then how about you make him your beta and you take over as alpha. Then just merge yours and lan’s pack together.” I told her, and her face lit up.

“You would really help change the law?” She asked me hopefully.

“It’s the first thing I’ll do Monday morning.” I told her, and she gave me a hug.

“Thank you, my queen.” She whispered as I hugged her back. She is exactly what lan needed.

“Please call me Ashlyn and you can help me with the new policy.” I told her, pulling out of the hug.

“Okay, you two. Can I at least get a hug before you both start talking business?” lan chimed in.

“Its good to see you too, lan.” I told him, giving him a hug.

“I’m so glad that you’re okay.” he whispered to me.

“Stop hogging.” Alex said, and I chuckled, pulling away from lan.

“Always good to see you, Alex.” I told him, giving him a hug.

“I’m glad you’re looking more alive.” He chuckled, and I laughed.

“Me too.” I told him, patting his chest.

“Ava, I’d like to introduce my mates, Derek and Mason. And this is our son James, and our daughter Gabby”! said.

“Look how big he is now.” Alex said, shaking Jame’s little hand.

“Don’t remind me.” l pouted.

“But he still has those cheeks,” lan said, pinching one of my cheeks. My mates chuckled, and I gave them a look.

“How about a tour?” Derek changed the subject.

“Momma, can I go find Matt and Hazel? Matt said he was making cookies, and I wanted to help.” Gabby asked me.

“Of course, Gabby bear. Just don’t eat too much cookie dough.” I told her and she nodded. Derek put her down, and she took off into the house to find them.

“I want cookie dough.” Ava said, and I giggled.

“We can share. I always get Matt to put some aside for me.” l told her.

“Smart,” she said as we walked into the castle, with the men following us.

“So you built this?” Ava asked in awe, looking around.

“My magic did.” I told

“That’s so awesome. Its amazing you can use magic and shift.” She told me.

“Awe, thanks.”

After the tour, we were all sitting in the living room. Gabby was still helping in the kitchen and James was down for his nap. I’m not sure why I was so worried before. Ava was wonderful, and I found I was okay with her sitting with lan. It was great to see him smiling, and I like Ava. They work together. I was sitting in between my mates on the couch when Brooke, a hybrid, walked into the living room. I noticed Alex jumped up and was now staring at her. Brook is a wolf witch like me and Gabby.

“Mate,” Alex said, and Brooke looked at me.

“Brooke, this is Alex, beta of the Blue Moon pack.” I introduced her.

“Hi Alex, this is a little awkward. Do you want to go for a walk?” She asked him, and he nodded. She led them out of the living room.

“Why do I feel like all my babies are leaving the den?” I said out loud.

“It’s not that bad,” Mason said, wrapping an arm around me.

“You won’t be saying that when it’s Gabby.” And both Derek and Mason let out a growl.

“lan, don’t have a daughter.” Derek told him and Ava, and I chuckled.

“Awe, but could you imagine her with lan’s blonde hair and Ave’s brown eyes? She’d get all the boys,” I said.

Ava started laughing while lan looked like a ghost.

“She would be adorable,” Ava chuckled.

“Why would you put that on me?” lan asked me.

“Oh, karma is such a bitch.” I told him with a smirk.

“Oh, I like her even more.” Ava laughed out.

Gabby came in with some cookies and they smelt heavenly. She walked around to all of us so we could all taste one of her cookies.

“Did you have fun?” I asked her, and she nodded.

“Now Auntie Sage and I are going to plant flowers.” She said, giving me a hug.

“That’s wonderful. I’ll make everything bloom later.” I told her, k!ssing her head.

“What’s your favorite flower?” She asked me, and I didn’t even have to think about it.

“Lilies,” I told her and her face lit up. She squeezed me again before she ran off to find Sage.

“You can make flowers bloom?” Ava asked me, and I nodded.

“I can show you later,” I told her.

“Baby, are you sure you’re up for it?” Mason asked me, and I could feel their worry through the bond.

“I’ll be fine,” I told them.

“Ashlyn, are you sure you’re okay? You got hit by a dragon.” lan asked me, and Derek gr0aned.

“I opened a portal. Growing some flowers is nothing, ” I answered.

“Men,” Ava said, rolling her eyes, and I chuckled.

“I know, and I have two. Let’s leave them to worry. I want to hear more about the laws I need to change.” I told her, standing up.

“Sure, but let’s get more cookies.” She said, standing up, and l chuckled.

“I was thinking the same thing,” I told her, interlocking our arms.

“We’ll be in the library.” I called out before we went into the kitchen to get some cookies.

“Ashlyn, you are a breath of fresh air to all the alpha daughters that were told they would never be more than just a Luna.” Ava told me as we made our way to the library, with our cookies and coffee.

“I think you should come with me to the council. This law is going to get changed, and I can’t believe there is even a law against a female being an alpha.” I told her.

“I know Gabby is adopted, but will she take over being the oldest?” Ava asked me as we sat down in the library.

“Gabby would take over for me as James would take over a kingdom, depending on if he has a dragon or a wolf. Gabby may not be my b***d, but she will also be family, and I would never want her to feel anything less if we were to have another daughter.” I told her and she nodded.

“It’s nice that you don’t care about b***d. It’s something that I have heard my entire life; only an alpha will strengthen our bloodlines. Pretty much I am always treated like a baby machine.” Ava told me.

“And we are going to change that. I’m so glad that you found lan, you are just what he needs.”