Becoming Alpha’s Personal Caretaker
Chapter 177

Mila's POV

Standing by the window, my eyes were on Richard.

He was with Alpha Victor. I did not know what was the topic of their conversation but it appeared to be very serious since none of the two men were smiling. I saw the alpha patted Richard's forearm. Looking at the dejected face of the beta, I knew that the same expression was on my face.

Are they talking about my rejection to him?

My eyes widened. Did he seriously spoke about it to Alpha Victor?

I moved away from the window when I saw Richard was about to glance in the direction of the room where I was.

He can't see me. I should not know that I am peeking on them!

I leaned on the wall beside the window pane. My heart is thumping very loud.

"Everything alright, Mila?"

I nodded profusely. I am still plastered on the wall.

My head turned to where Lauren was.

My friend was seated at the edge of the bed. She has a bewildered expression on her face while looking at me.

I straightened. I am embarrassed by my own behavior.

"He, he-" I said incoherently while gesturing at the window.

"W-what?"

I motioned Lauren to sit back down when she was about to stand. A frown marred on my friend's face.

"R-richard. Richard glanced at the window."

An 'oh' formed on the other woman's lips before she settled back at the edge of the bed. She played with the skirt of the dress she was wearing.

It was really pretty and it looked good on Lauren.

I took a deep breath.

My attention went to the white dress I am wearing, too.

It was a Venus cut dress that reaches right below my knees. The dress showed off two things focusing on my creamy skin, the left shoulder and the left thigh. There was a cut beside the crotch of the dress. The whole front of the left thigh was for everyone to see. I like it. I can move freely. It also hides the fact that I am not tall.

"You alright?"

I shook my head. "Not really. I am thinking of my decision not to tell Richard about, you know."

"And?"

"I am having a debate in my head at the moment."

My eyes rolled when Lauren laughed at my statement.

"I'm serious, woman. You know why, right?"

"What was the last rebuttal in your head, my friend?"

I groaned. "I don't know. I'm still in the deliberation part."

To my surprised, Lauren laughed even louder. After a minute, she stood up and walked until she was in front of me. Understanding was all over her face.

"What do you really want, Mila?"

"I want this baby. She's mine."

"That's great."

"I like her to know about her father. On how gentle her father is."

"That's better."

"I want Richard."

"Even better."

Lauren reached for my hands. She stared into my eyes with a wide grin on her face.

"Whatever your decision, I am with you."

"Thank you."

I was pulled into a hug. It when the tears cascade on my face.

The fears that have been clouding my head has started to clear. In my mind, I knew that I wanted to be just like Lauren. I want to be as fearsome as she is. I wanted to fight for what my heart wants. At this time, my heart longed for the person that shared DNA with the baby I am carrying.

"I am not trying to tell you what to do but it would help if you try to forget about what happened in the past. I mean, you are a wonderful person, Mila. You will be a great mother."

Lauren's voice soothed me. It pushes away the traces of doubt that has been instilled in my brain for a long time.

"What happened to you will not happen to your child. You will not allow it. I will not allow it. Your baby will be the most spoiled child in the tribe. She will be cared for and love."

I nodded as her words sunk slowly into my head.

What my own mother did to me has brought a life-long trauma. It molded me into the person that I am. It was carried out in my personal relationship with men in general that I put them at arm's length. That I did not trust them with my heart. Having a baby was not part of my future plan. Having a man beside me was not included either. But I have both of them.

"Your mother made a mistake. She was wrong to treat you that way, Mila. You are far more a different person. You will be a different mother."

"I am different. My baby will be loved all her life." I muttered with positivity.

"Indeed."

"For Peanut." I whispered.

"For Peanut." Lauren repeated.

I wiped the tears from my face. With a smile, I met the proud face of my friend.

"I will fight for my happiness."

"Go, girl."

I nodded as I detached myself from Lauren.

"How do I look?"

"Radiant."

"Good."

I turned my back on her and went in the direction of the door.

"You are no Cinderella, woman. Midnight is not your curfew. Come back tomorrow." Lauren hollered.

That stopped me from sprinting. I glared at Lauren but she responded with a snicker.

"Go, find him."

I looked over my feet. I have nothing on them but the house slipper. It was the fluffy bunny slippers I found in the lowest part of the closet. It must be Lauren's old pair. This can do.

I mouthed my thanks before leaving.

I ran to the gardens but to my dismay, I found no one there.

Disappointment enclosed me but it did not stop me from searching for the beta.

The solar lights installed atop the trees helped me as I sauntered in the dark nights.

"Darkness will not stop your mother to find her happiness, Peanut." I murmured under my breath as I thread the foot trail.

A curse exited my mouth when I almost trip when I stepped on the dried twigs.

"Dammit!"

I breathed out. I had to exhaled a few times before I continued the trail on finding the handsome beta.

The howls stopped me from walking.

I am not afraid. The people in this tribe recognized me as Lauren's friend from way back.

My brows puckered when I heard rustle of leaves in the silence of the night. I had to cross my arms in front of me when the night breeze blew.

"Stupid me. Of course, it's cold in the forest, woman." I reprimand myself. "Where is that guy, anyway?"

I slapped my arms a few times when the mosquitoes started attacking me.

"Stop it. I like this dress, alright." I murmured in the air.

I made a complete turn when I heard movements from my back.

Words were unable to exit my mouth when I saw the person standing behind me.

The forbidding figure of the person I am looking for was standing a few meters before. He was unsmiling. s

"What are you doing here, Mila?"

A scowl was painted on Richard's face.

I cleared my throat before I spoke. "How long have you been standing there?"

"Long enough to see that you shivering in that short dress. What where you thinking walking in the forest without a jacket on at this time of the night?"

The beta was reprimanding me as he removed his own jacket. When was in front of me, he placed it around my back. It covered almost the whole length of the dress except the hem. "Why are you here, Mila? Let's get you back to Miss Anna's cabin."

He was about to guide me back when I grabbed his wrist. I also lifted my head so that his gray orbs meet mine.

Despite the dim illumination, I can see the reflection of sadness in his beautiful eyes.

"I was looking for you."

My words startled him. He stared into my eyes to see if I am telling the truth. "Why?"

There was a hitch in his voice.