A Rogue For Four Alphas
Chapter 47

Chapter Forty Seven

When the men untie my hands and slip off my blindfold, I feel awkward around them in a way I never have before. Something has shifted. They know something about me now, something that I hadn't fully realized myself, and didn't mean to

share.

I get off on a loss of control. It's a weakness, a vulnerability.

"How was it?" Alpha Ian asks, his grin wide and confident. The others are watching me too.

Having been helpless and blind for so long, I'm not ready to engage. My mind still needs to process the whole experience; my body needs to recover. To deflect, I joke, "I'm never going to want to find an apartment now." "Don't," Alpha Damon says, his tone firm and serious. "Stay." "Yeah, stay," Alpha Harry echoes, resting his hand on my thigh. Alpha Ian nods his agreement while Alpha Erik stays silent.

"That was amazing," I say, ignoring them, wishing I'd never made the joke. I slide off the bed, pretending I have an immediate need for a bathroom break. "I'll be back."

Are they asking me to move in with them? Or just to stay longer? Either way, it's a moot point.

Alone in the bathroom, I take inventory in the mirror. My hair is a mess and my eye makeup is smudged in dark shadows. I look like I was just used and abused, and I don't think I should have enjoyed it as much as I did. But how can we control what our bodies respond to?

The men liked it too, taking my body however they pleased. Of course they did. Isn't that what all men want?

I almost wish I could slip up to the guest room and sleep alone while I try to process tonight's activities, but I'd miss being next to a warm body. We seem to be following a schedule, and tonight I'm due to sleep in Alpha Damon's bed. He probably wouldn't take well to me asking to sleep alone.

All four men are still in Alpha Damon 's room when I return. "I'm so sleepy," I say, wanting to cut off any conversation about staying with them before it continues. There are several reasons why I won't stay here long term, but I don't want to get into it right now.

"I hope you had fun," Alpha Ian says, giving me a kiss goodnight.

"Sleep well," Alpha Erik says, a little twinkle in his eye.

"I'm going to sleep here, too, if that's okay," Alpha Harry says. He glances at Alpha Damon, who doesn't look at all surprised, so I assume they've already talked about it.

"That's fine," I say. Two strong, warm bodies in bed with me instead of one-nothing to complain about there.

Alpha Harry gets in the bed first, taking the spot closest to the wall. When I slide in beside him, he says, "It was hard watching you needing release for so long."

"Yeah, but it was hot, too," Alpha Damon says, lying down on my other side, laying a hand on my hip.

"I knew it was you who got me off," I tell Alpha Harry.

"I couldn't spank you," he says, squeezing my hand in his, "though I guess you enjoy it? Maybe next time."

Next time. I don't want anything between us to end, but should there be a next time like that? Sex is one thing; feeling so completely vulnerable is another.

Outside of the bedroom, being under a man's control is the absolute last thing I want, but maybe that's what makes the fantasy so thrilling. Knowing I'm safe with these four men left me free to enjoy the experience deeply. It's amazing how much I trust them. I can't think of any other man I've been with who I would have allowed to tie me up and blindfold me.

"Everything was perfect," I say, in answer to Alpha Harry's question about my enjoyment.

To get more comfortable, I turn on my side, facing Alpha Damon. He's on his side, too, facing me, and slides his hand over my hip.

Alpha Harry presses one of his legs against mine and gently strokes my back in a way that soothes my still- busy mind.

I'm honestly shocked that Alpha Damon 's okay sharing his bed with one of the other guys, but Alpha Damon's been surprising me all along. He's a possessive asshole who will also do whatever he thinks will make me happy. I'm glad I bent my one-night rule for him, and for the others.

It's nice imagining that I could stay with them and that things could always be like this, but that's not how life works.

That's more of a fantasy than my romance novel. I've been having such a good time with them, but good times like this don't last.

I should probably leave soon, so that we end things on a highpoint, so that we'll all have the very best memories of each other. Alpha Harry strokes my back and Alpha Damon gently squeezes my hip, and I hope I haven't already stayed with them too long.